前不久去了趟旧家，拿回了些“老古董”,都是些中学时代积攒的东西：考试证、照片以及各种各样的有纪念意义的小纸片。

我这个人是有收集“废品”的嗜好的，比如小学时吃零食吃出的各种卡片我一张都没有扔。当然了，这些形形色色的卡片中，真正是我“吃出来”的大概只有5%。它们中的绝大多数都是在上下学的路上捡的。当时有个同学和我顺路，碰巧他也喜欢捡这些“破玩儿”（注：“破玩儿”一词出自曾哥，该曾哥为男性），于是每天下学后我俩之间都会展开一场争抢卡片的战斗。下课铃一响，我俩就飞奔向校门口的小卖部，把小卖部里里外外的地面捡个精光。那些都是别人扔下的卡片，当然不会是稀罕货（有些卡是很难“吃出来”的），即使是这样，我们也照捡不顾。我深深的记得，有一种小吃里的卡叫“友谊卡”，大概两平方厘米左右，集够一定数量后可以换成东西，只看“友谊卡”的数量，并不管卡的内容。这东西我捡的最多了，最后搞到一大袋，而最终我也没去换什么东西，全都留了下来。

回到正题。这次要说的是刚才翻出来的高一时我写的一篇英语文章《I don’t think your English class is good》。“洋洋洒洒”数百词写在一八开大小、背面满是物理题演算的草稿纸上，文后还有英语老师的评语。具体怎么个情况我想了半天也想不出来，我只是很惊讶当时为什么敢把这样一篇有些侮辱性的文字交给受侮辱的对象。全文如下：

I find more and more classmates agree with me.They tell me that they learn only a little in the class and learn the other parts by themselves.How did id come about?Let me tell you:Your English class is boring.You always stand before the big blackboard and look at your books and blackboard.You seldom look at your student.I think the reason why you don’t look at us is that your face turn red easily.When we do the listening,you can’t let me understand what you are saying.Some students speak themselves,I can’t hear what you are saying at all.When you teach us how to work out a subject,we can’t understand what you are saying.You talk a lot about a subject,but we don’t think it helpful to do the subject.That class is too boring.When we learn the new words,sometimes you spend one or two classes to teach us the words and we make a lot of note.Sometimes you just teach us how to read.Sometimes you even let student read the new words before learning.If they can’t read them well,you will say that he or she has not learned the words themselves.Do you know you are wrong?I wonder if you are a student before.Do you know how a student feel when he stand without a word and at that time you look at your book without a word?Do you know how embarrassing he feel at that time?When a student can’t answer a question,you say nothing and he must stand there before a long time.During that time,you go on your teaching and don’t care about him.Isn’t he there?You understand?He is a student and he want to sit down and learn English.It is lucky for you that you haven’t let me stand.If you do that,I will argue with in class and let all the classmates know that you are not a good teacher and you are wrong and we don’t need a teacher like you!

写到这里，我似乎明白点了。当年针对这个刚本科毕业的年轻人，我专门组织过一次班会，当着她的面批评讽刺她的授课方法。但究竟这篇文章在前还是那次班会在前呢？
看看黑体标注的三句，我是不是有点太“嚣张”了……

后面是英语老师的评语：

I’m terribly sorry that I made so bad impression on you.Maybe as a teacher I have no experience.There are still lots of thing I need to learn.Also I want to and am trying to learn from others just as you have to learn from others in study.What I do is all for our class and all of you.I hope all of you can be better than me in future.

一年后文理分班，一位“老老师”接替了她的位置。

过了这么多年，经历了这么多事情之后，我终于体会到了年轻老师的不易。说句玩笑话，人家是学英语的，毕竟也考过《英美文学史》……人家刚大学毕业，没有经验，讲不好课很正常，即使再垃圾也不能当面给人家难堪啊，写个这么损的东西写就写吧，还弄个班会搞什么搞？

哦，想起来了，到了大学我也弄过一次类似的事情，还是英语。大一英语课每个人课前都要有个speech，轮到我那天，我当场讲了一大堆，说的是这课上得多么没劲多么没有意义……结果老师直接要了我的电话，还给我来了次面对面深入探讨。

现在的我没有那股“锐气”了，或者说没有那股“傻气”了。针对看不惯的人和事，我会选择沉默。真不知道这是进步还是退步。

遇事多分析自己的问题，多寻找自己的过错。要知道：

一切都源于你不够强